Strange day

Have you ever felt that on your most important day of the year, you just don't feel like attached to it.. you just don't feel like doing anything and just want to remain closed in a room.. cut-off from the entire world.. just lying on the bed and hoping that nobody could contact you.. you just don't feel like celebrating  or be with anybody... you just want to be with yourself and feel the solitude within yourself.. you feel that loneliness is your best companion and it only can understand what you are going through and can feel the pains.. you feel that solitude is the best way to just find again what you are and what you want to be..

well I am feeling exactly like that today...