Feeling Patriotic

What does one need to feel patriotic??? This one question was there in my mind from past some days. Is it the echo of national anthem? Is it the voice of some nightingale singing the national song? Is it the sight of national flag? Or national emblem? Or the sight of lot of persons from different religions standing together? Is it some strong patriotic speech given by some strong leader? Is it some achievement that you get for your nation? Or is it something else????

Well i finally found the answer today in the newspaper. It is the PREAMBLE OF OUR CONSTITUTION that just filled my heart with just one thought. AM VERY PROUD OF BEING AN INDIAN. Here it goes.....

WE, THE PEOPLE OF INDIA, having solemnly resolved to constitute India into a SOVEREIGN SOCIALIST SECULAR DEMOCRATIC REPUBLIC and to secure to all its citizens: 

JUSTICE, social, economic and political;
LIBERTY of thought, expression, belief, faith and worship; 
EQUALITY of status and of opportunity; 
and to promote among them all
FRATERNITY assuring the dignity of the individual and the unity and integrity of the Nation; 

IN OUR CONSTITUENT ASSEMBLY this twenty-sixth day of November, 1949, do HEREBY ADOPT, ENACT AND GIVE TO OURSELVES THIS CONSTITUTION. 

Home alone

Back in my native home after 2 weeks... feeling a lot better here as there are ample of things with which i can relate.. those trophies that i won in my grads reminds me that i use to be an achiever at one time.. those books reminds me that i use to read a lot at one point of time.. those clothes reminds me that i was much slimmer than what i am now.. perhaps i was much much better person also than what i am turning to at this juncture of my life..

but one good thing that has happened now is coming of some good news.. some new friends who has once again reminded me of good times i had in my life earlier.. how i wish i could turn the time back to those golden days of my life..

well collecting all those thoughts i come back to my table and keep staring in the vacuum in front of me as i start working on the chores of the day...

OH GOD... I MISS YOU...

Strange day

Have you ever felt that on your most important day of the year, you just don't feel like attached to it.. you just don't feel like doing anything and just want to remain closed in a room.. cut-off from the entire world.. just lying on the bed and hoping that nobody could contact you.. you just don't feel like celebrating  or be with anybody... you just want to be with yourself and feel the solitude within yourself.. you feel that loneliness is your best companion and it only can understand what you are going through and can feel the pains.. you feel that solitude is the best way to just find again what you are and what you want to be..

well I am feeling exactly like that today... 

Saali khushi

Alte Jalte Raakh Jaise Hui Hai Sari,
Khaak Jaisi, Bewajah Si, Umra Saari,
kahaan Chali Gayi Hai Saali Khushi.

Jalti Aanheein
Hai Saans Bhi Jali Hui Jali Hui
Dhoondhoon Kaise
Hai Aas Bhi Jali Hui, Jali Hui

Saanp Jaisi Kaali Raatein Hain
Hain Zeher Si Ye Zindagi
Kahaan Chali Gayi Hai Saali Khushi.

Foggy days

Today is another foggy day.. another day when you wonder where you are.. your heart says you are in heaven and can do whatever you want to.. since nothing is visible around, one also take the liberty to be unconventional.. but as the fog lifts, realities of life starts coming back.. again all the old things start to hit you and the person again gets stuck in daily chores.. 

Well for some time, the heart is filled with joy.. joy of all the desires being fulfil ed.. joy of living life on your own terms.. joy of doing things that you will not do in day to day life..

but the realities hit you hard.. they bring you back to the ground.. ground where there is nothing and only fights of life and existence.. 

Anyways... keep fighting...

Where are we heading to?

increasing tensions... time delays in meetings.. nobody want to take the first step.. waiting for this all to get over and to  be together... yet one part of myself asking me to hold on.. hold on till i am sure of all this.. hold on till things are concrete enough to be trusted.. hold on till i realize that this is really what i always wanted to do..

Well walking on the road to uncertainty i can only remember Metallica -

"So close yet so far..."

The Beginning

All things have a start. Well this is my start...

Standing on a road where i have left a lot of things behind, nothing in hand and a very uncertain future ahead, am thinking what to do. Somethings have happened in recent past which has forced me to take this drastic step of leaving a very settled life and opting for something where the successful persons are only 2% of the total who apply for it. Well let's see what happens..

The only thing which i can say is that -- 

Nobody in the world can have a crystal clear heart because everyone's heart has some scratches scribbled by their dear ones.